While Ethan Hawke may not be one of my favorite all-time actors per se (the incomparable Daniel Day-Lewis and the intense Christian Bale may be notches above Hawke), I think he is the best studio talk show guest hands down. For the longest time, Terry Bradshaw was my favorite guest for his “aw shucks” approach on Jay Leno for so many years but there is a new unofficial holder of MII (most impressive interview). Hawke is engaging, self-deprecating, charming, and hilarious with his delivery and speaking style. His rapport with the host or leader of the interview is clear and smooth. An actor like Hawke gets booked on shows as part of a press docket but he is so splendid that you can only imagine what it would be like to have a meal with him and hear his dazzling stories of life as a star. A true thespian who has been in some hit movies, Hawke can be counted on to bring his fastball to any interview. It doesn’t matter if he is on Conan, Kimmel, or Seth Meyers, Hawke is a delight to watch with his humorous stylings and eloquence. As someone who watches too much television, I have seen Hawke as a guest on local news morning shows and he is spectacular on those as well. His graciousness shines through, chatting with the hosts of a mid-sized market, remembering names, and being genuinely excited to visit. Too many celebrities go on A.M. morning shows and act like a seven-year old, being forced to push away a delicious birthday cake ice cream bowl and eat asparagus. His impressive canon of films is powerful on its own but it is who he is ( a good guy) and not what he is (a star actor) that make watching his interviews such an exceptional viewing experience.
Lately, I’ve been wondering where it all went wrong. I guess you could say I have always looked for acceptance only to be disappointed. I can’t think of one person that I can call and talk to anymore. Most of them time, I just wonder why I put so much into things that didn’t pan out. I imagine just sinking into the ground, knowing that no one will ever notice. Today was a tough day, I just couldn’t get on track. I lose so many hours just wondering why I am here, what’s the point of me even trying because everything is so pointless. I hate myself and one day I will disappear and I don’t care what they will think or say of me because those days are over. I never fit in with anyone so who cares. I wish I had a mentor but most of the ones I identify want nothing To do with me or they focus on some one else. I was never a bad person.
I’ve been asked to list 15 films that will always stay with me. The rules are to take no more than 15 minutes and tag 15 people to make their own lists.
1) There will be blood
2) blue velvet
3) Vanilla Sky
5) American Beauty
6) Eyes wide shut
7) Wonder boys
8) Revolutionary road
9) Broken arrow
10) The Social Network
11) Basic instinct
12) The purge
13) Point break
Not fitting in, staying in this area, reaching out to people who don’t care, giving so much to people who have no use for me, being alone, trying so hard to fit in, sucking at life, my own self, the way I look, the way I am, etc.
Will feel great. I’ll never have to deal with that town.
Wednesday nights are not fun. There are always serious problems awaiting. Tomorrow will be a struggle like most days are lately. I’m pretty frustrated with my life and I don’t get to spend time with the people I want to. I usually get punted or pointed Away. When you realize that no cares and that there is no hope, there is really nothing worse. Mostly, I am just confused because I give so much and I try to fit in but nothing seems to ever work out for me. I really hate myself, I wish I didn’t feel this way. I know that these feelings will never go away and that I will always be alone. People that I used to have faith or trust in have revealed themselves and there is a lot of pressure on me because there is nothing to look forward to anymore. Hopefully, I will fit in one day and with someone but I doubt it. There are so many negative people I have to deal with, they are the ones who love to just talk bad about me to people that I actually like. People like that are so dismissive, they call me freak or unique and it just worsens. But it won’t matter because no one believes me. So, another Wednesday night all alone, just like the last one with dominant anxiety attacks and hopelessness. I have no purpose anymore and with no one on my side, no one to talk to. I wonder what goes on in people’s minds when they ignore me. I’m not sure why people just used me this year, it’s as if they got what they wanted to out of me and nothing else that I can do will change things. That’s what it has been like for me. Not just this year, the past four or five years. Nobody really has any hope for me and I don’t have any hope for myself.
The MLB All-Star game is one of the most magical nights of the summer. Played on a Tuesday evening, it brings baseball fans, families, and friends together to see all of their heroes playing on the same major league diamond. It truly is a mesmerizing and inspiring event and it is even more special that the midsummer classic will be played on Target Field. This showcase is significant for so many reasons other than the natural state tie-in. The state of Minnesota has enjoyed games played on natural grass since 2010 and the players, coaches, fans, supporters, and friends of the BOLD baseball team were able to watch their Warriors win a Class A title in that pristine ballpark nearly a year ago. My favorite all-star memories involve amazing talents such as Torii Hunter, Pedro Martinez, and Ichiro Suzuki. Hunter’s amazing catch, robbing Barry Bonds of a home run in the 2002 game held in Milwaukee is an undeniable and iconic defensive feat of brilliance that hasn’t faded even though the uniforms and footage of the game has inevitably become dated. The memory of Pedro Martinez pumping fastballs at his home park of Fenway stands out as well. Especially, when he challenged the hulking Mark McGwire with a blistering heater. To see a guy built like noted Red Sox fan Matt Damon generate so much velocity was amazing to see in 1999. And nothing is routine, a lesson that was crystallized in 2001 when I saw Japanese import Ichiro Suzuki in his first all-star game. I never saw a player beat out a chopper to second base with such ease as Ichiro. That game was special because it was the last midsummer classic played by baseball’s Iron Man Cal Ripken Jr. but that dazzling display of speed is an artifact of the game that I will always cherish. This terrific night will involve former Twins such as Carlos Gomez, Pat Neshek, and Justin Morneau in the always captivating home run derby. If it is power you fancy, Jose Bautista and Giancarlo Stanton will be there. If it is special speed, look no further than Gomez or Mike Trout. And for no surprises hardball, Clayton Kershaw will bring the heat. All eight positional players for the AL will be from different teams, so if you don’t want to see multiple players wearing the same cap of a rival team in this jewel of a park, you are in luck. A special night in a special ballpark, it doesn’t get much better on a Tuesday night in the middle of the summer than this.
The NBA Draft will be held on Thursday night. Aside from the flashy suits the prospects will be wearing, the NBA will usher in a new crop of talented blue-chip players who will either grow their game and change a franchise or be out of the league prematurely like Timberwolves draft pick Will Avery, a 1999 first-round pick out of Duke. Maybe not all eyes will be on the NBA draft the same way viewers were tuned into the NFL Draft and the pre-coverage may not be as comprehensive, but it is still a premier event in my mind because dreams will come true for players and for a fan picking a coveted top pick. After all, the first rule of any mass media manual is to “give the people what they want.” A few days before the 2014 NBA edition of their draft, things are different now than they were in 2007 but not completely with some similarities remaining. The reliable San Antonio Spurs made quick work of a Lebron James-led team just as they had in 2007. Premier and proud franchises such as the Boston Celtics and the Los Angeles Lakers were mired in mediocrity and for the Lakers, it appeared that a trade involving Kobe Bryant would be an inevitable end for the superstar and the only franchise he had known. At the top of the draft, a freshman 7-footer in Greg Oden appeared to be the consensus top pick with an intriguing athletic force with the dynamic skill set to contend for multiple scoring futures in his future. Of course, Greg Oden’s career was marked by injuries while Kevin Durant flourished as the Rookie of the Year for the Seattle Supersonics and later as an MVP for the Oklahoma City Thunder. Just recently, Kansas 7-footer Joel Embid was diagnosed with a stress fracture in his foot and will miss 4-6 months of game action for his new team. Whether he precipitously falls down board or not will be revealed on Thursday but atop the draft board Kansas teammate Andrew Wiggins and Jabari Parker of Duke are now the talented scorers who flashed excellent talent and a propensity to score in bunches. While they may not be the franchise-changing elite game changer of Durant, Wiggins and Parker have the ability to be perennial all-stars and possibly contend for league scoring titles. Also, the Timberwolves in the summer of 2014 still have issues with the short-term outlook of their team. Still facing a postseason drought that has now reached a decade-long hiatus from the 2004 team that reached the Western Conference finals, the Timberwolves’ face of the franchise Kevin Garnett in 2007 was moved to the Boston Celtics and now in 2014, the franchise’s all-star power forward in Kevin Love is unhappy and the topic of a myriad of trade rumors. It appears unlikely that Love will re-sign a long term deal with a team that was last a playoff contender while he was in high school, so a similar move may be in the cards this year. When a talented player is on the trade market, much talk is devoted to the notion of trading the star or risk losing a Love, Garnett, or Chris Bosh for nothing when free agency begins. The challenge for the Timberwolves has been drafting, often missing out with picks while players like Garnett, Love, and Ricky Rubio have been the exceptions.Furthermore, keeping the core intact has been an issue. When these players are traded for diminished returns and find the postseason glory they had been desperately searching for here, it is difficult to for a fan base to be passionate and enthusiastic about a team at all.
Baseball is a hard game to watch when you realize that you have no friends. But I like watching college baseball on TV; the cool uniforms, the sharp plays, and how everyone is Happy
I know very little about most things but I know quite a bit about living life alone. I have no friends and I always was envious of people who received social invitations to games, community events or just lunches to catch up. This week, I saw a friend at a crowded event and he just acted like I wasn’t there. It only got worse after that. I also try to be nice to others but that doesn’t seem to work out either. If there was only some way I could be happy.
I can’t wait to leave this area. There is nothing here for me. I don’t think I’m going to say hello to that so-called friend ever again.